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TOKSIB

2012-01-25T09:21:00.001-08:00

kes aga kaka ära toksib?-r.j.l

2012-01-23T11:27:00.000-08:00

i see duplicity drifting around in your body and i don`t even care anymore, time will heal our wounds and i will learn how to accept life itself

2012-01-16T13:07:00.001-08:00

seduce my mind and you can have my body
find my soul and i`m yours forever

anonymous

PEPPERMINT

2012-01-04T12:41:00.000-08:00

when the peppermint leaves start to blossom in the steaming water

OLD

2011-11-01T15:47:00.000-07:00

the further the better,feeling like the old her is coming back.
is she really coming back..

sorri love

W

2011-11-01T13:43:00.000-07:00

18

2011-10-29T15:37:00.000-07:00

õige värk

2011-10-21T03:53:00.001-07:00

siuke junn tuli, nagu õhupall lendas- r.j.l

CHARLIE CHAPLIN

2011-10-21T03:24:00.000-07:00

Charlie Chaplin

Kui ma hakkasin ennast armastama,

Mõistsin, et olen igas olukorras õigel ajal ja õiges kohas.

Ja ma mõistsin, et kõik, mis juhtub, on hea – sellest ajast peale ma suudan säilitada meelerahu.

Täna ma tean: see on USALDUS.

Kui ma hakkasin ennast armastama,

Mõistsin, kuivõrd see võib teist inimest haavata,

Et ma üritan peale suruda oma soove

Kuigi ma tean, et aeg ei ole õige

Ja see inimene ei ole selleks valmis

Isegi kui see inimene olin mina ise

Täna ma tean: see on LAHTI LASKMINE.

Kui ma hakkasin ennast armastama,

Mõistsin, et emotsionaalne valu on lihtsalt hoiatus,

Et ma ei elaks oma tõe vastu

Täna ma tean: see on ISE OLEMINE.

Kui ma hakkasin ennast armastama,

Lõpetasin unistamise teistsugusest elust

Ja hakkasin nägema, et kõik minu ümber andis võimalusi kasvada

Täna ma tean: see on KÜPSUS.

Kui ma hakkasin ennast armastama,

Siis ma ei keelanud endale enam vaba aega

Ja lõpetasin vaimustavate projektide edasilükkamise määramata tulevikku

Täna ma teen ainult seda, mis teeb mulle rõõmu, mis mulle tõeliselt meeldib ja paneb mu südame hõiskama. Omal viisil ja omas tempos.

Täna ma tean: see on AUSUS.

Kui ma hakkasin ennast armastama,

Hakkasin põgenema kõige eest, mis ei olnud mulle hea: toidud, inimesed, asjad, olukorrad ja kõik muu, mis kiskus mind iseendast eemale

Alguses ma nimetasin seda “terveks egoismiks”

Aga täna ma tean: see ongi ENESEARMASTUS.

Kui ma hakkasin ennast armastama

Loobusin vajadusest, et mul oleks alati õigus

mis tähendab, et mu arvamus oli ka vale harvemini

Täna ma tean: see on LEPLIKKUS.

Kui ma hakkasin ennast armastama,

Keeldusin elamast minevikus ja muretsemast oma tuleviku pärast

Nüüd ma elan selles hetkes, kus toimub KÕIK

Nii ma elan iga päev ja ma nimetan seda TEADLIKKUSEKS

Kui ma hakkasin ennast armastama,

Mõistsin, et minu enda mõtted võivad teha mind õnnetuks ja haigeks

Kui ma hakkasin oma südame jõudu kasutama, sai mu meel tähtsa kaaslase

Täna ma nimetan seda ühendust SÜDAMETARKUSEKS.

Meil ei ole vaja karta diskussioone, konflikte ja probleeme iseenda ja teistega, sest isegi tähed põrkuvad vahel ja loovad uusi maailmu.

Täna ma tean: SEE ONGI ELU!

Luuletus mille kirjutas Charlie Chaplin oma 70.sünnipäeval- 16.aprillil 1959

2011-10-21T03:06:00.000-07:00

minu inimesed- ma olen tänulik ja õnnelik, nad teavad kes nad on

armastus on vist see

AWAY

2011-10-13T03:37:00.000-07:00

babi gurl has flown away
left her cat in her bedroom to stay
this was all a man could say
babi gurl has flown away

2011-10-10T10:57:00.001-07:00

ai! ma lõin oma veresoone ära r.j.l

MAKE

2011-10-10T09:30:00.000-07:00

one day, someone will walk into your life and make you see why it never worked out with anyone else

2011-09-28T09:39:00.000-07:00

DRINK

2011-09-08T05:14:00.000-07:00

consider becoming a drink
the liquid is not healthy
still i see people drinking it
it is time to face the fact
people need small dozes of toxic
it`s now all running in their bodies

my dog is shaking

2011-08-21T10:23:00.000-07:00

mul on kõrini !!!!!!!

2011-08-20T13:05:00.000-07:00

SOMEKINDOFWONDERFUL

2011-08-04T14:43:00.000-07:00

i want to drink you, as if you were a cool sangria on a hot summer`s day. i want to spit you out and then begin from scratch again. i would like to to eat you up, then compose a delicious feeling inside my body- from your leftovers. i don`t wan`t to kill you, no that is not my purpose at all. u just gotta know that this is something new and different for me. didn`t even see that one coming. my mind`s eye had crossed this border only in different dreams. now it is real, this happened quite fast.

2011-07-30T03:37:00.000-07:00

vikerkaar hakkab välku lööma- r.j.l

HOROSCOPE

2011-07-17T05:50:00.000-07:00

todays mornin
todays horoscope
i keep on seeing things in black and white
misunderstandings in nonsensical odds and ends

POLYESTER

2011-07-08T08:58:00.000-07:00

this action takes place every night. she grabs the polyester throws it on her naked body, in the beginning the material is quite cold but it is only a matter of time when it will warm up. the feeling is so smooth, the material is so fragile, it brings out all the lost memories. she remembers

NEVER

2011-06-28T15:48:00.001-07:00

“If you expect nothing from anybody, you’re never disappointed.”

- Sylvia Plath

21

2011-06-22T06:52:00.000-07:00

ROSKILDE here we come

21

DUST

2011-06-17T03:30:00.000-07:00

today`s dreams were sliced in two. in a way it made me realize that you can not depend upon people who are situated in a box marked with anonymous. a box that may seem to be covered with the dust of heaven, but is it really as firm as it seems? in the end the choise is ours, we either follow our intuitsion or put our cards on the table hoping for the dust to be real

BODY

2011-06-11T08:09:00.000-07:00

his armlet made out of black leather gives out a smell of smoke
it has the tendency of catching my attention even when my attention is captured
the smell of smoke is taking over my nose and my lungs, finally making it`s way out of my body

SPIT

2011-06-11T07:56:00.000-07:00

because today i saw a man standing beside his blueish ride, polishing and washing it with his spit, he was so eager to get it cleaned so he just went for the easy way out. well well said liis

i am as tired as the spit in his mouth which is being abused for some new shiny windows, i even bet those windows stink after the washing is over.

UNTITLED

2011-05-19T12:49:00.000-07:00

Hopelessly adrift
In the eyes of the ghost again
Down on my knees
And my hands in the air again
Pushing my face in the memory of
And now the time has gone
Another time undone

2011-04-03T04:40:00.000-07:00

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2_HXUhShhmY&feature=related

NEVER

2011-03-21T20:21:00.000-07:00

the things that we really are aware of and what we rely upon... they don`t practically exist in this world. people try to hang on to those people who have the ability of making others feel better, covering them with loads of information. this information is derived from a dampish organ called the brain. an organ with such power. an organ that can make even your own thoughts look like nonsense.never be foolen by these momentary feelings, you are on the right track

SHIT

2011-03-15T01:22:00.000-07:00

i guess this will not work out
feelings are behind a carpet made of dust and everybody is so competing
what a huge load of shit

SWEAR

2011-03-01T12:32:00.000-08:00

BACTERIA

2011-02-17T12:18:00.000-08:00

the deal with: speaking what`s on your mind is kind of a risky business,because when you are in a unpleasant situatsion, your tongue begins to pronounce the wrong words. so there you are, speaking with somebody, having no clue of what shape your tongue is going to turn into in the following seconds.
id love to say something that will come out the right way, but most of the time the things that are slipping over my lips are just out of place. i wonder, if i used a smaller amount of oxygen while breathing, will it help the right words appear on my tongue more easily then usually? will the words build a castle made out of bacteria while waiting.. ?

REVISION

2011-01-30T07:21:00.001-08:00

unbelievable situatsions have the ability of recording themselves in our mind.
these savings are either good or bad, it seems like we never seem to record our simple tasks in life. so in the end we are stuck with our own thoughts repeating them all over .. again and again
this is a dead circle that never seems to brighten up our tunnel. If you keep bouncing back and forth between creative and analytical activities, you'll get a headache. now how sweet is that

OI

2011-01-01T13:44:00.001-08:00

GET

2010-12-30T15:46:00.001-08:00

all the stuff we know we never want
it seems like we get it anyway
safe to say it is not really wrong
not when we know we only throw it all away

DISTURBED

2010-12-23T09:55:00.000-08:00

are you disturbed?
try to understand
no, i don`t understand
okei, even the dogs who we met at the shelter, they don`t understand
jesus is lying in a womb ready to pop out any minute
they say that he understands- good for you jesus

ACCENT

2010-12-11T09:14:00.000-08:00

FESTERING

2010-12-03T08:30:00.000-08:00

i now understand that a persons body has got the ability to begin festering whenever it want`s to make it`s life more interesting. you go, all you organs that like those kind of party`s

SO

2010-11-19T08:29:00.000-08:00

DOGSDOGSDOGSDOGSDOGSDOGS

KELLY

2010-10-13T12:20:00.000-07:00

“We’re constantly getting these messages to mind our own business and look the other way if we want to be well liked, to not tell the truth or speak our mind or say anything too intense. Well, I’m telling you here that this approach not only makes you party to other peoples crimes against themselves but is a prescription for mediocrity and delusion.” — Kelly Cutrone

ANIMAL

2010-10-11T10:04:00.000-07:00

there was a time when my world
was filled up with darkness
then i stopped dreaming now
i`m supposed to fill it up with something

in your eyes i see the eyes of somebody
i knew before, long ago
but im still trying to make my mind up
am i free or am i tied up?

i change shapes just to hide in this place
but i`m still i`m still an animal
nobody knows it but me when i slip
yeah, i slip, i`m still an animal..

sky ferreira- animal/ miike snow-animal

FANCY

2010-10-02T04:06:00.000-07:00

you look like a mixture of a fancy treehouse

2010-09-21T13:09:00.000-07:00

"Do not believe in anything simply because you have heard it. Do not believe in anything simply because it is spoken and rumored by many. Do not believe in anything simply because it is found written in your religious books. Do not believe in anything merely on the authority of your teachers and elders. Do not believe in traditions because they have been handed down for many generations. But after observation and analysis, when you find that anything agrees with reason and is conducive to the good and benefit of one and all, then accept it and live up to it." - Buddha

THEEND

2010-09-21T12:32:00.000-07:00

physics is a place where you should pop some pills into your mouth. the affect of it is quick and smooth, never mind the others, cause they don`t get the worthy of the subject. so in with the pills and out with the phrase that physics kills. the end is not near

CAKE

2010-09-17T13:38:00.000-07:00

why why why why why why why would you take a piece of a cake that is not ready? the taste is not the same- just so we got that cleared out

tomorrow morning, i will deal with this misunderstanding between me and my cake destroyer

SOMESOME

2010-09-12T03:47:00.000-07:00

lennu did some tattoos to some people, wicked

GALAXY

2010-09-02T08:06:00.000-07:00

hahahaahhahahaahahahhaha
hahaahahahahahahahhahah
haahahahahahhahahahahahah
ahahahahahahhahahahahah
hahahahahahhahhahahahahah'- pretty thoughts to be around

DON`T

2010-08-26T14:20:00.000-07:00

you are so beatiful when you don`t lie.
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it`s raining, but there aint no men falling from the sky. i lightened my candles and now it`s time for me to go back to 1961. It was then a movie called " Breakfast at Tiffany`s" was made so now after 49 years i have decided to check it out. better now then never

STEREOTYPES

2010-08-22T02:20:00.000-07:00

OKEI

2010-08-11T14:27:00.000-07:00

i guess it is normal to stuff food into your stomach until you feel satisfied.

i guess it is normal to turn out the lights before going to sleep.

i guess it is normal for a person to bite their nails before facing a major dispute.

i guess it is okei for me to write this dog shit into this white box.

i guess it is okei for us to look at things that have no meaning in them.

i guess it is okei.

i guess it is all okei if we feel okei.

i guess it is okei then.

YES

2010-08-08T10:44:00.001-07:00

PICKUP

2010-08-07T01:44:00.001-07:00

gotta go and pick up my j

STONEDTODEATH

2010-08-04T02:51:00.000-07:00

October 16, 2004, Zhila Izadi, a 13 year old girl from the north-western city of Marivan had been condemned to death by stoning after being found that she had been pregnant from her 15 year-old brother. The girl gave birth two weeks ago in prison, but was separated from her new born baby after the birth. The father, a devout Muslim, informed the authorities about the “disgrace” the young girl had caused the family.While Zhila as been sentenced to stoning, her brother, jailed in Tehran, is to receive only 150 lashes, in accordance with Islamic laws.

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On August 10, 1994, In the city of Arak, a woman was sentenced to death by stoning. According to the ruling of the religious judge, her husband and two children were forced to attend the execution. The woman urged her husband to take the children away, but to no avail. A truck full of stones was brought in to be used during the stoning. In the middle of the stoning, although her eyes had been gouged out, the victim was able to escape from the ditch and started running away, but the regime’s guards recaptured her and shot her to death.

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October 1989, In the city of Qom, a woman who was being stoned managed to pull herself out of the hole, only to be forced back into it and stoned to death. In justifying the murder, Qom’s Chief Religious Judge, Mullah Karimi, elaborated to Ressalat newspaper on October 30, 1989: “Generally speaking, legal and religious decrees on someone condemned to stoning call for her stoning if her guilt was proven on the basis of witnesses’ testimonies. Even if she were to escape in the middle of the administration of the sentence, she must be returned and stoned to death.“

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The fact that women can be gruesomely stoned to death for ‘moral corruption’ when the mullahs are prepared to sign men up for 10 minute pleasure marriages with young girls, confirms the male chauvinist basis of the entire system.

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This just confirms my belief that religion is used throughout the world as a tool to control and oppress not only women, but millions of people into blindly following cruel and archaic systems of belief, methods of law and justice, and extreme sexism by essentially brainwashing people in the name of ‘God’ and ‘religion’ in order to tyrannize and gain complete power over them.

YOU

2010-08-02T03:56:00.000-07:00

COLDBLOODED

2010-08-02T02:59:00.000-07:00

we build a highly strict prison into our thougts that every day remembers us about our failures. this is a very common way for people to get themselves down or more down then they actually are. we have many thoughts going on about our actions like" why should anybody need me. i am capable of nothing. i have always been lazy and disordered.i am such an ego, just like my grandmother told me. im not beatiful " etc. it`s exactly those kind of sentences that make living extremly hard for us. is this because we have grown up in a protestant culture where self-critisism is a virtue and self-satisfaction a sin or can some of us blame our parents who told us that we are vain, careless, stupid and reckless. the more parents divert their children the stricter becomes their prison, so in the end it`s really hard for them to understand that they are worthy a lot more then they are getting. human beings can be strong and evolve their personalities if they get support and are surrounded with positive atmosphere. we can compare this shit with smoking, the non-smokers exhale fresh air but being around smokers they inhale tobacco.. but what the fuck about the smokers? the negative thoughts just have a way of finding their way into our brains

INTHEFACE

2010-06-28T03:07:00.000-07:00

HELLOBEATIFUL

2010-06-28T02:52:00.000-07:00

losing something is a part of our life system, in some rare way it keeps us going with a brain that has started to smash our own thoughts, these particular things can be good as well as bad. sometimes may a smudged brain come in handy helping us understand the real shit

LEEUWARDEN

2010-06-13T06:52:00.000-07:00

sososo we are here now and the weather is just wacked although the local weathermen told us that the sun will shine for some minutes..
yesterday consisted of a lot of food and walking. being a tourist is kinda wonderful. leeuwarden is a really really pretty city and im falling in love with the buldings and the architecture. the whole getting here part was quite interesting knowing that we knew nothing about nothing .. in the beginning it was the eurolines bus to riga from there an airplane to germany, a bus to nijmegen(netherlands) and a couple of trains and then finally reaching to our destination which was leeuwarden. okei, coming back to yesterday .. so as i sayed it involved a lot of food which we by a miracle made with our own hands. it was pasta w a creamy sauce&some smoked fish. i would really like to put up some pictures but no usb wire wants to fit my camera. in the evening there were some coctails and a night in the downtown, some new friends and a new flowerpower. yes, see you when i see you

2010-06-10T09:41:00.001-07:00

SOMTHNEW

2010-06-10T08:24:00.000-07:00

so as the days have passed and my mood has been converted into my summer zone i`am finally understanding that i`m going on a vacation. the vacation will basically begin at 00.30 o`clock but... ahead lies a long journey to The Netherlands

PRINCIPLE

2010-05-29T01:59:00.000-07:00

all human beings want to assert themselves and make their point of views completely visible to the other citizens of the earth. we dedicate a lot of time on making ourselves clear and while we are making a heck of a good statement it is really funny when we err against our own principles. sometimes it seems like we all make these statements only because we know how to separate the right from wrong.

you cannot carve rotten wood.

OWL

2010-05-27T00:34:00.000-07:00

russian "finals" were quite okei
i was hoping to get a ticket that consisted of the things that i had learned by heart
but hey, shit happens and i got a long text about pihkva (translate,questions,reading)
i guess that the text put me to the test.
oh, and about the play- the final scene comprised of a bucket full of blood and meat&
it was all thrown up in the air, i guess it was a heck of a big meat show going on yesterday.
in addition to that school is almost over

COMPUTER

2010-05-22T03:23:00.001-07:00

so off

so on

people put their thoughts in a bowl

this bowl isn`t round it`s actually a computer that never makes any sound

so is this all that we need?

it kind of seems to be

FILTHYANIMAL

2010-05-18T14:06:00.000-07:00

DONTFORGETTOSHAVE

2010-05-18T13:50:00.000-07:00

so today was the day when we finally took ourselves together and bought the ticket`s to H.

i can`t wait to get away from this swirled world.

it`s almost like shaving a beard that doesn`t really exist

GRUMPY

2010-05-07T01:13:00.001-07:00

today i want to sing my heart out

the only problem is that i don`t have a demo

so.. we will see what faith has in mind for me today.

ooh i almost forgot to mention how wicked yesterday was.

i was at w for almost 4 hours

there we just talked and had a big argument about sunday`s final`s

then came the girl with the turban and made us sing after some dh rhythms

we were actually all feeling it, even the people in the small "class "were feeling it.

before heading out we sang for the last time for m and then came Toome who took the reins over

ouh the redhead came

and someone went insane

someone started to blush

but it was only a rush

ENIGMA

2010-05-03T11:43:00.000-07:00

Nobody gets to live life backward. Look ahead, that is where your future lies.-ann landers

INSIDE

2010-04-30T04:06:00.000-07:00

REMEMBERTHIS

2010-04-27T13:48:00.000-07:00

- something we can not forget

but now off to see the estonian waterfalls

THEBAG

2010-04-27T13:37:00.000-07:00

this crazy bag is haunting me

she brought it with a bicycle

this crazy bag is haunting me

it will not stop reminding me

then milking the bicycle and

heading out to the shop

getting a lift home is over the top

ALINE

2010-04-25T07:53:00.000-07:00

ICECREAMBEER

2010-04-19T04:42:00.000-07:00

right now it`s just

ice cream

and

beer

2010-04-17T04:43:00.000-07:00

DONTLETITGETAWAY

2010-04-14T05:26:00.001-07:00

it`s a beatiful day and i don`t want it to go away

SWAY

2010-04-13T12:03:00.000-07:00

ACUPOFTEA

2010-04-13T09:40:00.000-07:00

INLOVEWITHSKY

2010-04-11T06:42:00.000-07:00

in love with the sky

PANIEKSCELENCJA

2010-04-08T12:14:00.000-07:00

CELLPHONE

2010-04-07T02:34:00.001-07:00

she is having some troubles with life. she is waking up at four o`clock in the morning just to call her boyfriend. when they talk it`s not strawberries and and whipped cream, the thing is that it`s just the opposite of what it should be. this has been going on for several weeks now. she wakes up to think about him, she does the dishes and yet thinks about him.. she has got children but they have advanced into the backround. even when she is putting her children to sleep she is thinking about him and when everybody is tucked in right she will covertly make her move towards her cellphone with the hopes of hearing his voice again. so she has grabbed the cellphone and is about to type in those six numbers that have abrased into her brain. ooh, must certainly we can not forget the booz that she has brought with her on the balcony, you see she thinks that booz has a way of helping her out but yet there hasn`t been any changes involved. so she is making her way out on the balcony but just before pressing down the doorknob she sees a remote control which she quickly grabs and maximises the volume so that her children do not hear mommy yelling. out on the balcony everything seems to be fine until she begins screaming and yelling at her boyfriend saying that he is not good enough for her etc. this screaming normally lasts for 2h( if we are lucky).

but you see, the biggest problem is that this "mature" woman is living in a flat which just happens to by in the same flat where i live and suprise suprise.. this gets even better knowing that her balcony is just above my room. so here is the thing, i couln`t get any sleep tonight because the maximised stereo was playing the whole night and it slightly felt like my bed was in the same room with my good neigbour here.

so how do we live out this "crazy love" that makes us act like morons?

ITSERIN

2010-04-03T05:35:00.000-07:00

THEKILLINGMOON

2010-04-02T16:29:00.000-07:00

you see we all need a wind of change
but these changes usually come in a very inconvenient time

we are either not ready for them at that particular time or it`s some other bullshit that is annoying us.

FLUFFY

2010-03-30T08:36:00.000-07:00

PICKONE

2010-03-26T12:37:00.000-07:00

these couple of days have been really wonderful and they have involved a lot of food

thank you god

REMEMBER

2010-03-25T14:33:00.000-07:00

Ghandi sayed that whatever you do in life will be insignificant..

but it`s very important that you do it

2010-03-22T03:33:00.001-07:00

ainult südamega näed hästi

UNDERSOMTH

2010-03-21T10:23:00.000-07:00

REFINERY 29

2010-03-19T01:32:00.000-07:00

skipping school isn`t cool
try not to act like a fool

roses grow and they also bloom

but this doesn`t make skipping cool

-have a nice day

2010-03-18T14:06:00.000-07:00

cute

LIPO

2010-03-17T10:15:00.000-07:00

2010-03-16T12:34:00.000-07:00

cafemode

enlighten us with the problems we have got

make us see that things aren`t really as bad as they seem.

so much easier.. so much better... let`s make a proper speech

so that they will understand.

in the end- justice will win

DUPER

2010-03-16T11:20:00.000-07:00

HATE

2010-03-13T09:04:00.000-08:00

usually people don``t think before they react..

suprise suprise

im one of those people.

hatred towards myself!

THE

2010-03-12T02:59:00.000-08:00

thehautepursuit

REDHOOD

2010-03-11T12:45:00.000-08:00

WASSONAGAIN

2010-03-10T12:35:00.000-08:00

MIXTUREWITHTEA

2010-03-07T03:08:00.000-08:00

BLACK&WHITE

2010-03-06T09:52:00.000-08:00

LUCEWAIT

2010-03-05T00:34:00.000-08:00

So i kinda lost my mobile phone yesterday and i prepared myself for the worst, knowing that i had to go home and tell the bad news to mom&dad. But when i came home their reaction was slightly unpredictable from what i had in mind. In fact my dentist had called some hours before i had got home and saied that she had found my mobile. yeah, i visited the dentist yesterday as well (and i had no holes). Knowing that my mobile phone is gone but not lost i had some difficulties waking up this morning.. because there was no alarm.

So now im just sitting here, skipping school, drinking coffee and looking at pictures. This is a really good start for the day and it keeps just getting better because i found some spectacular pictures,which are uploaded above this text

wow.. these pictures give me shivers

source: rackkandruin

JAHHSO

2010-03-03T07:24:00.000-08:00

CHEERS

2010-03-02T09:52:00.000-08:00

get well P